Going to church doesn't make you a Christian any more than going to the garage makes you a car. ~Author UnknownI could not decide between these two quotes. They both make me feel a little better.
I rarely post anything serious on my blog. But this has been bugging me.
I went to church once all summer. I feel guilty about it. My church bugs me, so any excuse not to go lately,is a good excuse.
I don't question my faith. (thus, the quotes)
I have a problem with our current pastor.
-He is a football and basketball fanatic. Nothing wrong with being a fan. But his sermons Sept-March are nothing but bragging up a few kids that do well on the team.(and dont get me wrong some of them are good kids, some not, just like ALL the kids in the congregation...the jocks, the band geeks, the honor students and the ones struggling to graduate)
-He will also lie about anything to get his way. I caught him once in a lie. When I confronted him about it, he apologized. I was beyond angry, so I was unusually bold. I asked him if he was sorry he lied to me or sorry because he got caught. He hung up on me. That was my answer.
Our current youth pastor has been having some personal difficulties too. Its hard to respect a person who lives her personal life in a non-Christain way and then preaches the opposite. Its harder still on my kids. She swears constantly, gossips, and her husband recently left her and not because of
his indiscretions.
Our congregation is also in the midst of building an addition. Our church is less than 10 years old, but we seem to have outgrown it. Its dividing people.
The meaning of Stephen ministry classes seem to get lost with gossip and snacks.
Sometimes it is just easier to stay home and not deal with all the crap and politics of church. And speaking of politics, it irritates me beyond belief when my pastor uses the pulpit to tell me who to vote for.grrrrr!
So.. I am disillusioned. Disappointed. But I will go back. I miss it. As awful as it can be some days. I miss the fellowship of worship.
My husband reminds me, we were here before this pastor and we will be here long after he is gone.
But I told him if I die while this pastor is still here, to find someone else to do my service. I like the Lutheran pastors. One of the other pastors here is town is always friendly and asking me about my kids...maybe him...nah...I have heard him preach and he is all "fire and brimstone."
I have considered attending the little Lutheran Church down the road, but fear I will be lost during the service. I love the silver-haired line-dancing pastor there. He never remembers a name, but is always excited to see us. My husband's grandparents were members there, my kids teach their VBS, we are more welcome at the Mother-Daughter and Father-Son banquets there than in our own church. My kids and I have recipes pullished in their church cookbook(my church cookbook didn't publish ours!) We will be buried there someday....hopefully not anytime soon!
hmmm, good to vent a little. I feel so much better! Ahh!
(regular posts will return soon!)